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A natural worrier
Not warrior, worrier.
I overthink and o.v.e.r.a.n.a.l.y.s.e everything
I make myself panic about
the past
The present
And the future.
The things I cannot change
Or control.
Things that are inevitable
Unavoidable
Thoughts like these
Slide unprovoked into
my
head
And sink their claws into my brain
Permeating
Poisoning all my other thoughts until
I can think of
nothing
else.
When I think about them for too long,
It makes it hard to breathe
Hard to see
I shiver violently
And I often black out.
The thought grows,
until
itself
Builds upon
It becomes too great for me to hold and
I break.
It likes to feed on the constant worries I have
Like the deaths of my friends
The death of my lover
Sickness
Suicide
Or Accident
Things that probably won’t ever happen
But are still things I panic about
Things I dream about
Well, I say dreams, I mean nightmares.
Nightmares that are so vivid and realistic
And bloody
That I deliberately keep myself awake for days on end
Until the coffee stops working like it should
And my eyes
Slam
Shut.
And the worry sinks its claws into me again
To begin the cycle anew
.
because i have panic attacks from worrying about them
*explodes*
I really do hope you are okay... I'm here if you need it though